Good Morning my sweetlings,
A Blessed Yule and Winter Solstice to you all, the shortest day of the year when the Oak King and the Holly King will once again switch places and the great circle will turn again. Today is the day, the day on which we take a collective step into the great unknown, a day we have been facing with mixed trepidation and excitement all year.
Energy is shifting in a great wave and we are all stepping into it together, a new era, a new age, stretching out to feel our way. I feel a singing in my bones that tells me that everything is going to be different now, sometimes in almost imperceptible ways, and sometimes in enormous ways.
I thought today would be the perfect day to set down some tangible goals for 2013, embracing the raw power of this new energy that will carry me. I welcome it and trust it to help me achieve my dreams, of which I'm sure these will be just a few.
In 2013 I want to get a new passport, and use it to see the world. It has been too long since I rode inside one of those big metal birds, too long since I gazed down on the tops of clouds and thought how strange and wonderful it was to see them. Steven and I have talked about places we'd like to visit, things we'd like to do. He has been talking about Teneriefe for years and just last night we talked dreamily about Canada, and crossing over from there to Colorado. I don't know how easy that would be in reality, I'm afraid my geography is not the best, but dreaming is not for doubts and worries, it is for believing that anything can happen. I dream of visiting the mountains with my best friend, walking in a nature so different from that which surrounds me, living in 'Steff Time' as it is called on my clock, though I think I enter that time whenever we're together, in person or in spirit.
In 2013 I want to find a house with my love with lots of space and light pouring in through the windows. In the back there will be a garden, somewhere for ivy to grow over the walls, for trees to reach up to the heavens. I will come home, kick off my shoes and step outside bare foot. I will breath in a sigh of relief and imagine green filling my lungs and heart and blood. Steven will once again have somewhere to potter with eternally dirty hands, and I'll see him tenderly planting young shoots, scattering seeds, digging like he used to. We'll have a place to have our fires once more, to sit around with our short poker, and perhaps a longer poker by then, and stoke the fire. We'll throw herbs into it, offerings and wishes and dreams, intentions, and we'll listen to the crackling and whispers. It will be a place to gaze up at the stars each night, dizzily wondering, holding one another close.
The walls will be filled with pictures and artwork and there will be shelves just for my collections of things, my chests of herbs and endless jars and boxes of oils. There will be a spinning wheel maybe, with a little stool set beside, and a dressing table I've been thinking of for what feels like forever.
I'll have a peaceful room for healing painted a beautiful colour, which as yet remains a mystery to me, these things are to be figured out in time. It will feel tranquil and safe, a haven. It will be wonderful.
In 2013 I dream of continuing to spend lots of time with my friends, as I have been blessed to do this year. May I once again be whisked away on magical adventures at the drop of a hat, spend the daytimes frolicking and exploring and adventuring and the evenings tucked up in glowing warm places. May my nighttimes be spent whispering and speaking from the soul, sharing hopes and dreams and secrets with kindred spirits, and then sleeping soundly and deeply just to do it all again the next day. May I share many beds, watching Disney films and Harry Potter and snuggling with rats, feeling as though I'm ten years old again having a sleep over where the minimum amount of sleep is really gained. May I stare out of the back of the camper, watching the road, and may I see many more rainbows over my path and turn to whoever is next to me and smile and laugh and talk with them for hours.
In 2013 I dream of visiting new places in the UK to which I've always wanted to go but have never managed. The New Forest is high on my list, and Breacon Beacons, and Scotland, places I have dreamily imagined and over whose images I have poured, imagining the day I will finally see them. May I discover that I can in fact still ride a bike, and that I don't need to learn a third time, and may I ride somewhere, anywhere again.
In 2013 may I be blessed by the muse who stirs up ideas in my mind until it whirls in a frenzy. May I have many ideas and have the power to carry them out, and the means to do so. May I paint and draw and sculpt and blend and may my crochet hook find many wonderful textures wrapped around it. May I lay my hands on many interesting things, all manner of interesting things, and all the time may I have my sweet rat companions by my side to experience it all with me, and my love to quietly step up behind me and ruffle my hair, or gather me into a hug, and look at what I'm doing.
In 2013 I dream of becoming a wonderful reflexologist, able to help and heal and lend a listening ear and a supportive shoulder. I hope too that I will become trained in aromatherapy, or at least start on my journey, and learn to create more magical healing things. I trust that I will find the right place for me in this world, the best place to share my gifts and healing, and that I needn't worry about the decision anymore.
In 2013 I dream and trust that I will get to spend lots of quality time with Steven, my most beloved of all. Once more we will take care of one another and laugh with one another, and if needs be cry with one another. We will protect each other, encourage each other, dream together, explore together, grow together. May I make him feel as proud and happy and loved as he makes me feel each and every day.
In 2013 may I laugh freely and often and may I continue to be blessed with more and more people that I can trust to see my heart, as soft and as delicate as it is. May I always be a good friend, trustworthy and loyal and loving, and may I make my friends know how special and dear they are to me through my words and deeds. May they always know how much I treasure them, and that I am grateful every day for their being in my life.
In 2013 may I continue to have the company of my parents often, as I have been eternally lucky to have every year before. May we share many conversations and jokes, and may they have every happiness and luck with their endeavours. May they know every day that I love them and cherish them, and that I could ask for no better parents than them.
In 2013 may I learn many new things that will enrich my life and my experiences, and may I always step forth into new adventures bravely and with courage. May I always be curious about this world, and never stop learning the wonderful things there are to know about it. May I always find new things to inspire me, to dream about, and to be so excited about that I have to tell somebody immediately!
In 2013 may I be healthy of heart and mind and body, may my spirit and soul shine brightly and may I continue to be colourful every day. May I continue to see the beauty in the things around me, and may I be blessed with the ability to see beyond the surface.
In 2013 may my endeavours be successful and my passions be heartfelt. May my shop prosper, each creation finding it's way into the arms of the one who needs it most and who will benefit from it in the best way. May the things I create continue to make people feel happy, may they spread love and light into every place. May everything I do spread light, my words and actions and captured moments just as much as the tangible things I can create.